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Tuesday, January 21, 2003

where there is no vision, the people perish

rant time. excuse me.

i got home about a half an hour ago from the latest debacle that can be referred to as a city council meeting. first of all, i was painfully deceived by the agenda: there were only two items for discussion, so the meeting should've been short, right?

ha.

hahahaha.

ha.

anyway... i sat there, in the back room with all the broadcast equipment (as is my job) listening to one of our council members blather on, essentially, about how our city is too poor to do anything. i hate this man. in fact, i was sitting there, with one of the cameras trained on his face, watching how smug he looked while he insulted the people of this community that i love so deeply, realizing what a small, pathetic, bitter, angry little man he is. leaders need vision, goddammit. he is in a leadership position in this city. he was elected. granted, he's there because there hasn't been anyone to run against him... but still. he has a responsibility as a leader to give a fuck about this town and to have some fucking vision and want to see this community improve. yes. times are hard. two major employers and the hospital closed down in 2002. that's bad. people are facing economic difficulty and could use a few breaks. it's true.

but how can you sit there on television and say that we can't do it? that we can't get better? that our hands are tied until someone else makes the effort to make our community a better place? screw that logic. and the horse it rode in on. because now... now that we're facing such difficulty... well, dammit (!!!!!!!!!) now should be the time when we have the most hope. we should be looking forward and saying, "ok, things suck. how do we make them better?" i swear i hate defeatism more than anything else. and it absolutely disgusts me that this defeatist bastard is one of the policy makers for the city, and he's not in my precinct so i can't vote against him.

grrr. grrr. and grrr again.

i love this city where i live, and i love the people here and i truly believe that it's time for good things to happen. but they don't happen unless we make them happen. i love my job (even though i complain about the tiny details) because i get to do things every day that help people in this city have some confidence and some hope. and i'll be damned if some asshole on the city council is going to tell me that nothing's ever going to get better because the people are too poor and incapable.

ok, i'm done.

goodnight.





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